Tuesday, January 27, 2015

Journal Three by Logan Hendricks


            After reading the first 60 pages of Holding On, I can say that I am enjoying it to the fullest extent. Before this collection of dreamers, visionaries, and eccentrics, I had never before read an ethnography. Furthermore, I did not even know what an ethnography was. However, now that I have started reading one, I find ethnographies very interesting. In my opinion, ethnographies bring a whole new aspect about telling a story. Instead of telling a story in the traditional format with facts found on the internet, ethnographies allow the writer (in this case the interviewer) to get a firm understanding for what life was like for the subject. Specifically, the book is very efficient at demonstrating the variety of opportunities and experiences in the American life. As for myself, Holding On tugged at my heart strings for certain profiles. Some profiles were more interesting than others and some had more of an effect on me. There were two profiles that I enjoyed the most. Both Moreese Bickham, the prisoner, and the “Prophet” Blackmon were most striking to me because despite what they went through in their lives, they continued to hold on to faith in God. I am a devout Christian therefore I am very active in any profiles applying to religion. On the other hand, I am more passive when it comes to other profiles because I sit back and take in the information presented in non-religious profiles. In my opinion, Holding On does not have any weaknesses. I believe it is very effective at displaying what is so special about being a visionary, dreamer, and eccentric in America.

            Within Holding On there are many different themes. Since I am a Christian, the theme that connects most to with me is holding on to your faith in God no matter how rough life can get. Specifically, this theme applies to Moreese Bickham’s profile. Bickham was involved in some misfortune. In the troubling times of the Civil Rights Movement, racism caused lives to be lost. Bickham fell victim to violence. Even though Bickham had killed the two white cops, he became a different man in prison. After many years, Bickham became humble and was peaceful. What was most remarkable to me was other prisoners, who had committed crimes similar to severity with Bickham’s, being able to get parole and get out of prison, but yet Bickham continued to be denied parole for decades. However, even though most people would have lost hope, Bickham continued to believe he would get out of prison. He kept believing God would get him out of there. When it appeared things could not look anymore grim for Bickham, his prayers were answered and he was granted parole. To me, this theme was more important than any other theme addressed so far. Whether you believe in a deity or not, the fact that Bickham continued to have hope that he would get out of prison despite how unlikely it looked is pretty powerful. Now how does the theme of hope and faith in God apply to my life? Well there are a couple instances that have been hard for me but my faith has remained strong. First, when I was 15 years old, I experienced a new aspect in life that I had never been exposed to before. On December 5th, 2010, my grandfather had a massive stroke while he was asleep. I had stayed the night at his and my grandmother’s house. That morning he would not wake up. I had never lost anybody before in my life. Being exposed to death in the family was a new and detrimental thing to me. I still have mental images and nightmares to this day and I am still very much affected by his passing four years ago. As a matter of fact, it changed who I am as a person forever. Losing my grandfather really solidified my faith in Jesus Christ. I thought that I would never be happy again because I had lost someone so close to me. Every day was depressing because I had to constantly remind myself that he was gone. However, my faith in Christ has allowed me to get my life back and be happy again. I no longer feel guilty for my grandfather’s death. Through prayer, active church service, and committing myself to my Savior, Jesus Christ, I am now at peace with losing my grandfather. The theme of Moreese Bickham directly applies to my life. When I had every reason to give up hope, my faith finally came through and lifted my mind, my spirit, and my body back up. Hope and faith gave and continues to give me something to live for.

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